FORGOTTEN HISTORY: Hey pandas how are you actually - Caught on Camera

why hello there. I’m gonna assume this is a vent so get ready for a VERY long essay about me, authored and co-authored by me.

So I’ve been having a really hard time. It started in 7th grade, last year. A lot of people around me started dying (nobody that I cared about) and became atheist/agnostic. Things were going great, only my dearest and closest bestie knew.

On January 4th, 2023, a day I will never forget. The worst day ever. Every 4th of every month, I don’t talk to anybody and cry in my room.

On January 4th my mom comes home and tells me that she found out about my atheism, gender, and sexuality. They outright told me that they didn’t support me. They told me I wasn’t allowed to talk to my online friends anymore, one of whom was pretty much my boyfriend but it wasn’t official.

They call me by he/him pronouns which is kinda stupid because I don’t identity as male. They refuse to acknowledge my attraction to males and females and only acknowledge the females.

Since then my parents have started emotionally abusing me and I’ve been very close to suicide MANY times (almost stabbed myself twice, almost hung myself once, almost choked myself to death four times, almost jumped off a bridge, etc.)

The point is, when my “parents” inevitably find out that I’ve been talking to people on this website, I’m doomed and will probably kill myself, or in the words of BP Censor: [unalive] myself

I relapsed the other day. Worst part is, nobody noticed.

not great if i'm being honest. it just sucks how i was in a good place mentally for once but i'm going back exactly where i started again and i feel so stupid.

To be honest, I'm pretty good, but I'm upset because my one friend absolutely hates my other friend and has been really mean to him, and I don't know what to do because they are both really good friends and I am a complete and total people-pleaser.

uhh im fine i mean i actually am bc i cant quite say im good bc ive been very bored lately which is not good but im also not doing bad either so im fine

I’m actually doing pretty good. However, came here to say something: Ignore ‘Hehehehe’ the idiotic dog-fish who dirties the name of dog-fishes. Dude, seek therapy before you get injured from someone rightfully punching you in the face. And quit insulting May. You’re probably another one of these morons seeking attention online, and this might hurt but what you think is the ‘thrill’ of insulting others and being transphobic isn’t gonna last forever. You know Cityhamster? Maybe he got banned now. I dunno. Haven’t seen him around. Point is, the stupid being who calls itself ‘Hehehehe’ would be banned immediately by now. Good riddance.

I also keep dissociating and i feel anxious and depressed all the time. I don’t know what to do. Nobody even knows so have this account and I don’t know what I feel sometimes.

I don’t know anymore. I had an ok week and I got good grades and stuff but everything feels off. It’s hard to explain. But i am happy that I got to join bp!

I should be doing great, but I've just been really tense and anxious for a while. This happens sometimes so I'm not too worried, but it's unpleasant. Also, it feels like my boyfriend has been avoiding me. I asked him about it a but ago but he said I didn't do anything wrong, and I'm sure he isn't doing it on purpose. I just miss him. Altogether I'm doing fine and I'm super excited for summer, but I could probably be a little better. How are you?

Hell, where do i even begin? I dont even know what f*****g grade im in. (Im homeschooled, skipped a grade, got held back a grade i think, and skipped another one??) Im just so f*****g done with everything. My hands are shaking so bad, and i dropped my full bowl of (idek) onto my leg, and just broke down. i dont know if i can keep going, its so tempting to jump out one of the two windows in my room. Even if it doesnt kill me it would let me actuslly sleep for once :(

I don’t know

I’m doing ok. Really sick at the moment though, have had to miss 2 days of school because I feel like absolute garbage. :p

My week just started. Got to school like 20 minutes ago. So I’d say I’m pretty good. Started my day off watching a full episode of Mike Judge’s Beavis and Butthead. They put season 2 episode 1 on yt. Thank goodness cuz I don’t have Paramount + to watch season 2. Luckily I can watch season 1 for free. I started binging season 1 yesterday. And I just finished binged Rick and Morty season 6 before starting Beavis and Butthead. Ok rant over lol. “Boi oi oi oi oing!”

May Isn't a woman and never will be. I simply speak truth. He and him are "may's" pronouns.
Actually, calling you may is a bit weird since you're a dude. How about I call you r****d instead?

"AHGHHvjdndjsbdxh
My mom has taken every possible opportunity to deadname and misgender me.
I'll never pass, and I'm way too tall.
My only friends are online
And I want to die"
Do what you want to

May isn't a blahaj or a woman.
Tranny